Four

Sometimes it seems like a lot but mostly it just seems normal now. Four kids. How did we get here? The girls were just born weren't they? Now they are almost five and amazing me and entertaining me and shocking me everyday at the things they know, remember, learn, can do, say, etc. A tiny bit of that is bad stuff but in general it is so great. Livy is the typical older sister who takes charge and is always trying to help the others and cares about them all. Rachel is always listening and thinking and continually amazes me with how she is so aware of others and their situations. Colt is awesome. He is a typical two year old monster sometimes hitting and screaming for what he wants but other times he is amazingly polite, caring, sensitive, funny, independent and sweet as can be. And he's two. He was honestly a baby last month I think? Oh, Ellie belly or Elle belle, these are her nick names around here. Sweet, smiley, happy and strong Ellie. How we love having a "baby" around here. Everyone loves to see you, say hi, hold you, kiss you, feed you and love you. Man, I love all of you guys.

Sometimes it seems like a lot and some times it doesn't. I think looking in from the outside it seems like more than it feels like most of the time. Don't get me wrong, they are a lot for me to keep up with but when I just look at them in the every day it doesn't seem like a lot. It just seems normal I guess. They are each so special and individual and just part of the family. I don't really know how to explain what I'm talking about. Just wanted to remember this time when I am feeling not so overwhelmed but happy with how things are, probably because everyone is in bed for the night!

I lost my focus of where I was going with that point but I just want to conclude by saying it's not so bad, it's pretty good actually. It is crazy lots of times and every once in a while I want to cry but most of the time I don't. Most of the time I am pretty happy with how it is going and and when I see them loving each other and playing and happy together, there is nothing better. I love you guys. I hope you are loving our life like I am.

Busy is better for me. I struggle to be productive when I have extra time so being busy keeps me focused and moving. I get more checked off my to do list when I know I have to do something now or it will not ever be done instead of having the option to push it off and procrastinate. I now cherish my thirty minutes each night to play words with friends or blog or read or whatever. Don't let me fool you though. I am not getting big projects or anything that productive done. My things I get done are "get a card in the mail" or "fold laundry during the day instead of at night". Yeah, I'm quite productive around here.

And I couldn't do it over and over each day with out Heavenly Father and Eric. I know having the spirit in our home helps everyone have a better day. And Eric keeps me mentally stable now a days. And is a great laughing partner when things get too crazy!

For the most part we are healthy, happy, and pretty much just surviving. I don't cook much and everyone likes to dress themselves so you never know what we will look like from day to day but basically it is going good!