Up and Down

I feel absolutely crazy some days. I'm sure that being pregnant is making me hormonal but I have been totally fine up until this point. So I think it is the staying home all the time cabin fever that is adding to my craziness. Some days I just want to cry all day, usually I can hold it in until night time though. And who knows what it's about, just about anything. I get so sad that I yell at the girls or get mad at them when they don't listen. And I get mad when they have their horrible days at using the potty but I know that I can't really get mad at them for that so then I get even for upset because I can't not get mad. And around in a circle it goes. There are other things too, like husband frustrations too, but who doesn't deal with all of this. I used to be able to all the time with out crying about it. Anyway.....

one night I was a crying mess and just in a bad, sad, depressed mood. The next day I felt great. Lots of energy and feeling good. At nap time I started cleaning and got a bunch done, including just cleaning all the bathrooms, and was feeling pretty good. Make dinner, just getting it on the table and Rachel walks out with no pants on. Accident #1. Wet clothes in the garbage can (don't know why she does this) and a puddle of pee on the floor in my newly cleaned bathroom. Clean it up. Going to find Livy to go to the potty. She pees on the floor as I am walking to get her. Accident #2. Another puddle. Clean it up. Finally sit to eat dinner. Clean up dinner. It's too quite. Accident #3. Rachel pooped in her pants and didn't tell us. "I can do it all by myself now." She has poo smeared down to her knees from taking off her own pants and all over the toilet seat. Wiped herself too. With half a roll of toilet paper. Eric thinks it will flush so we try it. No such luck. Watch out, here it comes. All over the clean, only peed on once, bathroom floor and into the hallway. Does this explain the picture above yet? After the cleaning of Rachel and the bathroom again I had to unwind with at least ten candy bars. I think it was actually more but that is all you can see in the picture. But I didn't cry that night. So I guess chocolate is the answer for now. I'll be crying in a few months when I try to lose this extra candy weight. Update: Since then I have tried going out more and it has helped for sure. I feel more normal.I don't need as much candy and haven't had a crying depressed afternoon/night! And the potty training is still up and down but possibly taking a step in the right direction!