A Hard Day

I don't think that the girls were acting any differently today than they normally do but today was an especially hard day for me. I didn't feel like myself and I almost broke down crying 4 times today because they don't listen to me. No matter what I say they don't listen. I can only imagine how Heavenly Father must feel like jumping off a cliff with all of us down here "not listening" to what he says. Although, he is past all of that I am sure and has had millenniums to practice his patience. Normally it doesn't make me feel so terrible but the past few days and today especially I feel like I must be totally doing something wrong with them. I just feel like a terrible mom. It seems that other peoples kids obey but maybe everyone feels like this. Not only can I not make them obey me, but I am losing my patience a lot lately too.

I go up and down, up and down. One minute I am sitting with them and we are having so much fun. Watching them laugh, seeing what they find funny, listening to all the cute and hysterical things they say, how they take care of each other, how they congratulate me and give me five when I go pee pee on the potty and how they run to me to kiss their boo boo and it is magically all better. And then the next minute I am trying to get them to do what I tell them, put stuff down, don't touch, hurry up, sit down, all the normal things-and of course they don't do it and I am mad. Just for a minute until quickly reminded by the little things they do that they are 2 and absolutely adorable with all their quirks and personalities that I sometimes don't fully appreciate. Then again I am in awe that I get to be their mom.

Tonight Eric was out to eat with his brothers and dad and off to the Priesthood Session of General Conference. The girls and I had some food shopping, sorry-grocery shopping, to do so we didn't hang out with anyone like we normally do on these nights. We stopped off at the BBQ place that we love to grab a quick bite. Perfect place for us I figure. The girls love this restaurant because it has a train that goes around the whole restaurant on a ledge close to the ceiling. Great I thought, they will be good for me. Whatever. Out of control monkeys. We sat in a booth, first mistake. They wouldn't sit down and were walking all over the booth no matter how many times I asked nicely for them to sit, and asked not so nicely a few times too. And they were leaning over watching the people next to us non stop, with french fries loaded with ketchup in their hands. Finally I decided to sit on their side of the booth with them. Little did I know that Rachel had spilled her cup of water on the bench and I ended up with a big wet patch on my butt. Lovely. I shoved my food down as quick as I could so we could get out of there. This picture is from right after we ate. They both have lots of BBQ sauce on their shirts even though it is hard to see. I think we will be eating at home when daddy is not with us from now on. No big deal right? But today it was super frustrating and I almost cried again because of it. Hopefully this up and down and crying stuff doesn't last too long.

This morning we had a Williams family photo shoot with the wonderful photographer Ginger Williams from our ward. She is so great and I am so excited to see what the pictures look like. These are a few we just shot with our camera after and during. This is one for Pool Works. Who would let these crazy near their pool? Just kidding guys, I like this one!

There you go. Now these gentlemen can plaster a pool for you, and do your deck!

Challenging photo shoot. We didn't get any pictures with all the girls smiling but at least they are all looking straight. Rachel and Kylie had a little melt down each at one point and Peyton told April "no" when she asked her to smile but that was about it! For so many so young I think they did great! Lexie and Blake were the only ones who got excited when we tried to sing to them to get them to smile. So much for that tactic.

These ones with just the kids are adorable. Look at Peyton and Halli, so sweet! The one below looks so much better with the light. I don't know how to do photo shop yet. It is on my list of things to do.

I love Katelyn and Blake in this picture. She is just holding his hand and he is staring at her. She seems like she has done it forever!

While I was getting ready Livy came into the bathroom to do my nails for me. She had her nail polish and did my nails and then sat down to do hers.

Don't forget your toes!

Nice hair, below all cleaned up!

At the family photo shoot.

My Grandma Ede got the girls these bracelets when they were little but they are just starting to fit them. Rachel was so excited to wear hers and Livy wanted nothing to do with it so Rachel wore both of them. She is such a girly girl.

My pediatrician told me not to give the girls peanut butter or nuts until they turned two. I hear different things now but anyway we did it until they were almost two. Now Rachel is totally enjoying peanuts. She love them and peanut butter too. She just eats it on a spoon. She is definitely mine! I can't get enough of either!

This is their new picnic table they just got. They love it. We have eaten lunch on it the past few days and they ask to eat their snacks there and stuff too. They always ask me to sit with them too. It is so cute and perfect for this summer when they will be all wet and we can eat outside now.

Some new shades. Supposed to be for Easter but that is what happens when I shop for holidays early. I bought a bunch of stuff for Easter a month ago and I think I have maybe one thing left that they haven't gotten yet! Oops. Don't tell you know who!

Speaking of him, the girls now call him Eric when he is not there and sometimes when he is. They pretend call Eric on their phones and just today Rachel called me Jessica.

I am so thankful it is General Conference weekend. For anyone not a member of the LDS church, it is a conference held two times a year broadcast from Salt Lake City world wide. During this weekend we get to hear talks from our Prophet Tomas S. Monson and the Apostles. It is always such a great weekend. I am so happy it is now and I hope I can be receptive to the spirit and the messages that I need most at this time. I am so thankful for a loving husband too. A stubborn and independent spirited husband but loving and supportive one too! He gave me a long hug and told me I am doing a great job with the girls. He says no ones two year old listens to them, not any he knows of anyway. He didn't need to say anything spectacular just comforting and understanding. I know he loves me and I am so grateful for him. Hopefully tomorrow is a little less emotional.