Up and Down and Flipped Around

To start, sorry no fun pictures this week. Just words. Last week was a down week. I felt like I was loosing my mind with two almost two year olds who don't listen to a thing I say. After 500 times of telling them not to touch the dog food bowls I find them together hovered over the dog bowl with mouths full of food. OK, either laugh now or make the gross face. I have gotten both reactions. And mine at the time was a full fury of anger towards my beautiful little girls. I don't know why I was so enraged but I just was. I yelled and tried to punish them in a time out corner but they don't seem to get it still. They sat for a while and then straight to bed. Then I cried. I was mad that they don't listen to me and I was mostly mad at myself for being so mad at them. Why did it make me so mad? I know they aren't even two yet and I know that not listening is what that age does best. I happened to be texting my cousin right after and she was the first one to laugh at them. OK, now almost a week later I can kind of see the humor in it but mostly I am just grossed out. And no I didn't snap a picture before I cleaned their mouths out. Silly me, I wasn't thinking of the photo op! They there was a few more days of anger for non listening and bad behaving children. The good news is that I have finally gotten control of myself and I am not getting mad anymore. I am happy to say that I feel much better this week, not overwhelmed, and we are happy. I just felt like I was loosing it and totally out of control and like the worst mom ever. So that was up and down.

Flipped around. That is about the girls. Two posts ago was about how Livy was testing me. Now it's Rachel. Most of last week was her acting out and Livy was so sweet and caring. She shares, gives Rachel anything she wants if Rachel cries, gives Rachel her snack first, etc. Such a sweetie. And Rachel is pushing, crying, and hanging on me. No terrible temper tantrums but still and intense switch. At least they switch so one is up and one is down and not both down at the same time. But they are wonderful little girls and always make me smile.

They both love reading books right now, the same ones over and over and over again but good that they want to read. Favorite books are the I Spy books. All Rachel wants to eat is junk food. She ate cheese doodles for dinner last night. Livy likes all food and will eat her main food as well as her snack. Rachel is also attached to Eric when he gets home. Cries when he leaves the room. Livy is totally into me kissing her boo boo. She always comes over to me with her boo boo and a little kiss sends her on her way. Rachel doesn't even try and do it. She doesn't care. They love to sing church songs and their favorites are I Love to See the Temple and Jesus Wants Me for a Sunbeam. Livy always wants me to see that she has done something so she comes right in my face and says "Mommy I do it." So proud of everything she does! Rachel's favorite thing to say is "I don't want it." A different version of no. And the funniest thing she says is "I do yips." Guesses on the translation....she means she will zipper it. All I say is "zip" when I do her pajamas. And that is what she started saying to me when we put the pajamas on.

Glad to be feeling happier and more in control, or accepting of the uncontrolled craziness. Hope you are having an up week too!